This will be my last weekend that the state of Ohio finds me legally married! Our court hearing is Monday and of course anything could happen, I’m expecting that he will be civil. He’s being an asshole about the house and I cannot afford the house payment and rent anymore, but other than that he’s been civil and I think he finally realizes that it’s over. I moved out into my own apartment about 3 weeks ago, which I think helped us both tremendously (other than financially for me that is). It’s so great to have my own apartment. It’s so great to not constantly find his dishes or his socks lying around. It’s so great to have a clean house and not be irritated when he spilled something and didn’t clean it up. It’s so nice to be able to watch TV in my living room again, without worrying about him coming home. It’s so nice to be able to walk around in my robe, or less, if I feel like it. It’s so nice to be able to have Rod come over to my place, to show him more of my personality.
I do believe that Monday will be an emotional day for me. As much as I want and need out of this marriage, it’s still the end of something and someone who I thought might be in my life forever. But until Monday, I’m planning on enjoying my last married weekend as much as possible! Rod and I are taking tomorrow off working and going to the Columbus Zoo for the day. I love it there!!! He loves the zoo but has never been to the Columbus one, so he’s in for a treat. Then we are meeting my friend and her husband who live in Columbus for dinner, and I haven’t seen her in probably a year! Then we are spending our first night in a hotel together. I couldn’t be more excited to spend the whole day and night with him. It’s amazing how I can spend so much time with him and still want more.
Saturday I’m going to the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame with a friend, Sunday brunch with a friend, then to some local spots in Cleveland for some alone time. What a perfect way to start and finish the weekend. Wish me luck with my court date on Monday! I’m looking forward to being able to finally tell Rod that I’m no longer married! And so I can stop saying “my soon-to-be-ex-husband.” I’ve been joking that I have a boyfriend and a husband at the same time, but in reality I would much rather just have a boyfriend. That’s way less complicated.
Divorce is awful…but it’s amazing how eye-opening and freeing it can be for me.